Summer

Oh my god, how to I describe my summer thus far? The fact that I'm barley skimping by with sleep, and basically running off of energy drinks and 5 hours, is proof enough of my monumental weeks off. The hillarity in the whole shebang is that its all based off of pure COINCIDENCE. I never though in a million years, that i would make as many beautiful Friends, memories, and be as sleep deprived. Ive meet as many people in as many hours, and to be honest, i don't know where these people have been my whole life. But i don't want to give the impression of replacing my old friends, but a trip from the norm is always nice.

Over the past 8 daysI've learned alot about myself, as well as others. I've seen the serenity that the world has to offer, if only you choose to seek it out. I've people, exsausted from the night before drag them selves out to have one more adventure. I've seen the most beautiful people I've ever met, physically and mentally.

Whats more, is I finally found the satisfaction that I've been longing for. I love the half ass planning, Kevin Kai's bitching about driving me home, the money draining, the red eyes, the oily face, the not perfect image, It's all worth it by far. This summer has been the most amazing EVER. The faces of my new friends have been engraved into my mind, as if we've known each other our whole lives. I've learned so much from you, and that's basically what a friend should do. I love you guys, with all my heart. Thanks for saving me from a summer off sitting on my ass and being sorry for myself.

alright fuckwad

Your really that ignorant, and surprising its more amusing than anything. your mad at me because I start a conversation, that is to awkward to carry on because YOU made it that way. Dont EVER forget, how we got here. You wernt willing to step out of your tiny box, willing to take a chance, or even let yourself feel anything other than what you were used to; nothing. Truthfully i wasn't really willing to give a shit either. I dont have time for a manic depressive girl such as yourself, that finds no joy in life. You wonder why I "im you and dont talk to you" YOUR THE MOST HYPOCRITICAL PERSON IN THE WORLD. What was it like when it was ME calling every fucking night? ever fucking day i walked you to your locker. Dont even talk to me about effort. You sealed your image long ago in my eyes. its about fucking time you "moved on". Its been to long anyways. And who's the one checking blogs, every other day when its obvious its been inactive for weeks? dont make it out to seem like im the bad guy here, because in all truth, you fucked yourself buddy, face it and stop blaming me. And i know you too well, i know your going to show this to everyone and their mother. I dont fuck so before you mention my name in another negative way, think about it first. Thats what i get for actually being intrested in a girl with a pretty face, with a fuckload of emotional baggage to boot. Forget about me, do yourself a favor kid. I have nothing nice to say about you; nor will i ever again.

Fruitless

Stayed home today, i feel like a heaping pile of boogers. DENTION TOMORROW. waking up ay 6:00 is NOT my idea of fun. Ugh, i havent been keeping on top of blogging, i find it harder to write about anything, its pretty much the same. 

Soccer was pretty intereting yesterday. It was fun, but seriously dude, your not that cool.  Get it through your head no one cares.

If these eyes could talk

Today was decent. Testing is easy, and its fun to go to 5th first. The day kept dragging on, so i just zoned out and though about the rest of my week.

I think im gonna get a gym membership, i mean shoot, its just across the street. No more excuses! time to slim down.

950 Goal points form soccer.com. FML.


and i dont even wanna try anymore.

Fuck

I hated today. And i know i cant call you. fml. i miss you. I still dont understand.

I love my life.

I'm genuinely happy again. Its relieving to know that there are people i can surround myself with, to make life go smoother. Blogging is entertaining (sometimes) but i don't think im gonna keep current with it. Maybe a few posts, here and there.

So basically my life's been simpler as of late. Im not complicating myself with things that cause problematic issues. Simple life bitches. Schools been alot better. I'm actually able to commit to things, and nothing is more satisfying then achieving my own goals.

Soccer. Oh, do i have tales of brilliance, and stories of woe. Honestly, i frankly think i still cut corners. I DO have talent, not to be cocky, but its the product of 10 years of dedication, i just dont take it serious. Its hard, to feel motivated to put on a uniform for a lack luster team. Now i know how the Detroit lions must feel. PWNED. Jokes aside, i truly desire to become a well rounded futboler, and while im making steps towards it, i wish i could step a bit faster. ALOT faster for that matter. Soccer is 10% skill and 90% attitude. I need to find the passion that i felt when i was playing u10 pal. I count myself out and doubt myself. Not anymore though. I cant truly be proud of myself until i give 110% every practice, game, meting. No more excuses, nothing less then the stars.


BTW, im really glad were getting to know each other. I just dont think your as interested as me, and that's gonna be an issue.